So I’ve been away on vacation the past week. You would think vacation is the perfect time to let go of doing and just be. Be in the moment as if time didn’t exist, like when you can’t remember what day it is…..
But last night with five days left, I thought I’m ready to go home now.
At first, my longing to be home felt like it was because I missed the comforts and routine of my own house. Which I do. Yet I’m in one of my favorite places in the whole world, Nantucket, where I’ve spent summers with family ever since I was a teenager. It’s also the magical place where my love story began thirty two years ago when we walked the same cobblestone streets and lay on the same big beautiful beach.
So as I pondered this thought of wanting to be home, I realized I was simply overstimulated by all the activity and family interactions. Taking it one step further, it dawned on me that I wasn’t being present. The urge to go home was a feeling of wanting to escape because I hadn’t dealt with the swirling emotions in my mind or paused to reconnect with myself.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m incredibly grateful for the many blissful hours I’ve enjoyed at the beach. The relaxing sound of the ocean waves crashing on the sand and feeling the soft salt water mist gently blowing on my face soothe my soul. I’ve had moments of timeless wonder – watching the tiny legs of little sandpiper birds dancing along the water’s edge, being hypnotized by the sunshine sparkling on the ripples of the ocean, and feeling smooth sand on my fingertips and toes as I sit for hours doing nothing. Unplugged but at the same time tuned into the natural energy of the universe.
The lesson I learned in this reflection of was that I know wherever I am I can find peace in coming home to my own spirit and soul. What I’m referring to is that place deep down inside that’s often forgotten. That is the place where all the magic comes from. It’s love, pure and simple.
I also know that whatever is bothering me, there is always something in that situation that I’m supposed to learn about me. So I ask myself what is this teaching me? How I can be happy and free in spirit not stuck in thought, worry or fear?
Whenever you tune into love, its much easier to be present, it just flows.
So, where ever you are, whatever you are doing, be all there, owning who you are and loving you.